Dissappear

I don't think I know the way forward from here.
Its a stumble.

I can't be grateful for meeting you
I can't be happy to see you
I really really wish I never met you
It might seem dramatic for this one time,
But when I like something, for me; it sticks,
And when I run I feel a little better,
Slowly I can feel myself,
But when I sit there and look at the beautiful sky,
And the annoying ducks,
(that pester me for food)
I still can feel you somewhere,
But you're disappearing.
     I can't shake the feeling
That I wish you were never there