Sleepwalking

I really miss those days.

I miss those days when being out at night made me feel alive, when looking at the moon made me feel happy. When i genuinely thought the moon was following me.

I miss those days i went trick or treating(however haram it appears to me now) and that little bit of independence made me feel like i was on top of the world.

Mostly i miss my best friend who i used to go everywhere with and do everything with. She thought i was crazy most days but she understood and listened to me. I miss that feeling of being understood. Its hard to be understood by someone amongst 5billion or so others i hope ill find someone like that again so i feel a bit more awake in this world than the usual sleepwalking i call life.