Cold Feet

More often than not I find myself thinking will this turn out right? what if I don't enjoy it? take for example starting university I had built up expectations in my head because I had thought i would never go to uni(loans, time, etc.) so therefore university became this unattainable Greek god, now that I have it- its kind more your average Joe, not to say I'm not grateful cause heck i am, what the hell would I be doing if I wasn't going down this route? Probably being depressed that's what. Its not only that, I'm starting to doubt my course. I mean obviously I'm not in it for the people, but then i wonder will i have anything in common with people who are far older and wiser than I? What if this whole journey is horrible?

But then if i sit myself down and really think. I think, I'm thinking too much. Like always, I just need to enjoy the experiences and make the most of it, not let myself think the worst. And then theres hard knock of reality, reality is that I may not enjoy all my experiences, reality is I may not have as much fun as I thought I would. University isnt what you see on TV (lets get the cat out of the bag, American TV shows) its not all fun, its setting yourself down and being serious. I feel like i'm getting cold feet before my big day.