not so average loner
So just the other day I went to Margate, it was a nice sunny day and whilst in the car with the trees in a blur running past me and the sun shining proudly, I had a thought.
These, these are the days of my life. Every moment, every tear, every joy its a part of my life its a part of me. And I carry these with me wherever I go. If my life was a flipbook with pages running speedily along what would it contain?
The moments where I experience emotio, where I come to a realisation from great ponderence, where I explore beautiful thoughts: changing character (at 13) isolation and the beauty of solitude(at 15) love (at 18) hardship (at 18) the reality of marriage (at 19)
There are those days that i dont forget. Those days where my thoughts are crystalline. Sitting in a park when its raining. Talking to a boy i never really knew anything about and not wanting it any longer, feeling numb laying in the bathtub when life is in the gutter.
And there is now. Ive come to realise im not the same as everyone else without sounding boastful in any way (please who am I) i realise i am highly intuitive infact probably so much that it affects my mooods, too sensitive to those around and far too in touch with my self and soul. And that is why I cannot at timed watch movies (the end of a movie symbolising an end i hate endings in a metaphorical sense but at the same time it is beautiful) I find it ridiculously hard to go to social gatherings (my introverted nature) I cannot explain how much I enjoy my own company, in fact i enjoy it so much my family find it odd, I find myself odd aswell only because half the time i dont understand myself or why i feel certain ways but i dont believe the way i am is a bad thing infact i like it its my unqiue factor and im not going to let anyone tell me different! In general i know now im your not so averageintroverted( by choice) loner (although i do have friends).
And i like being a bit weird. People who know me all say i have this thing where i can be d
so quiet that they dont even know i am there therefore more often than not i always make people jump. I am fascinated by horror movies so maybe thats why. There was a time i wanted to be a witch and for a year i only wore all black and wore black eyeshadow and scary gothic makeup. Everyone at college thought i was scary haha.
These, these are the days of my life. Every moment, every tear, every joy its a part of my life its a part of me. And I carry these with me wherever I go. If my life was a flipbook with pages running speedily along what would it contain?
The moments where I experience emotio, where I come to a realisation from great ponderence, where I explore beautiful thoughts: changing character (at 13) isolation and the beauty of solitude(at 15) love (at 18) hardship (at 18) the reality of marriage (at 19)
There are those days that i dont forget. Those days where my thoughts are crystalline. Sitting in a park when its raining. Talking to a boy i never really knew anything about and not wanting it any longer, feeling numb laying in the bathtub when life is in the gutter.
And there is now. Ive come to realise im not the same as everyone else without sounding boastful in any way (please who am I) i realise i am highly intuitive infact probably so much that it affects my mooods, too sensitive to those around and far too in touch with my self and soul. And that is why I cannot at timed watch movies (the end of a movie symbolising an end i hate endings in a metaphorical sense but at the same time it is beautiful) I find it ridiculously hard to go to social gatherings (my introverted nature) I cannot explain how much I enjoy my own company, in fact i enjoy it so much my family find it odd, I find myself odd aswell only because half the time i dont understand myself or why i feel certain ways but i dont believe the way i am is a bad thing infact i like it its my unqiue factor and im not going to let anyone tell me different! In general i know now im your not so averageintroverted( by choice) loner (although i do have friends).
And i like being a bit weird. People who know me all say i have this thing where i can be d
so quiet that they dont even know i am there therefore more often than not i always make people jump. I am fascinated by horror movies so maybe thats why. There was a time i wanted to be a witch and for a year i only wore all black and wore black eyeshadow and scary gothic makeup. Everyone at college thought i was scary haha.
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